Crushed Creations

by Awkward Marina

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Blazing Cat
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Blazing Cat I'm to ready to stumble,
I'm to perfect to crumble... Favorite track: Second Place.
Kyle Lindsay
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Kyle Lindsay An absolutely kickass debut album and a clear and defined style I've never heard anything quite like before. Favorite track: Back Home.
R3dm00n
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R3dm00n A beautiful Album with a very unique Style that is very hard to define as a Genre or Direction. While the lyrics are great in their own right, it's the instrumentals (or lack thereof) that really pulls this from average to brilliant. It's a very unique Style that feels Self-tought as it defies most "standards". Overall very enjoyable and very "Awkard Marina". Favorite track: Second Place.
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This is my first full album, Crushed Creations. It is much darker than the content on my YouTube channel, with themes of self-hatred and anxiety rather than ponies and colorful gem aliens. I'd describe it as happy beats with sad lyrics.

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released October 3, 2016

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Track Name: Crushed Creations (Intro)
Crushed creations paralyze
before I see them in front of my eyes
That frustration satisfies

Separation from current time
I'll become whatever I like
You can't tell me my voice is mine

Battle ready, I stumble
Crushed creations I crumble
Take my pencil out of my hand I'll be free of this

Ripping paper at my will
Couldn't time stand a little less still
Ripping paper to catch that thrill

Only ready when ready strikes
Octahedrons under my soles
You could tell me this plot's got holes

Battle ready, I stumble
Crushed creations I crumble
Take my pencil out of my hand I'll be free, oh
Crushed creations so unknown
Till the light of the sun's shown
Take my pencil out of my hand I'll be free, oh
Free to go...
Track Name: Back Home
The walls were painted gray
When I came home last night
Don't think they were that way

Is it nostalgia's sight
or is it really true
The faces don't look right

This place seems like it's new
But I detect no change
You'd wonder why I do

My friends, where'd you go, my friends, don't wanna know

This is not the way I remember it
I wanna go back home
Woah, a place I've never known
Woah, I wanna go back home

How did we rearrange
the way we had such fun
Why do you talk so strange

You could be anyone
'cause all our memories
are things we've never done

(CHorus)

And only I have changed
And only I have travelled the land
And nothing here has changed
Except for what I thought that I am
Track Name: Crazy Kids
Sometimes I look back on a different time
And I remember when noone was on my side
And were you an emo kid, screamo kid
Chasing down a dream at night to the beat of something dark
Did you hate that part
Did you make a great escape, noone did
'cause we were just too different and too unfair to be alike

But ooh, we were crazy
(And they called us crazy, yeah, and they called us crazy yeah)
Ooh, we were crazy
and they called us crazy kids

Would I be better off if I just went away
They made it all too clear that this is not my place
and were the quiet kid, riot kid,
some kind of divergent from what's considered typical
they're so critical
Did they cut your confidence, happiness
Try to break you down for the things that make you beautiful

(Chorus)

I'm a rock and roll diva with social anxiety
so when you're fuckin' with the losers then you're messing with me
You threw your punches, stole our lunches 'till we graduated
and six years later you're still acting like you mean what you said

And yes I'm stronger than marble, and yes I cry everyday
and I make faces you don't understand, clearly
We are who we are who we are, can you hear me

But every day, I was crazy
All they'd say, I was crazy
And they called us crazy kids
Track Name: Just Someone, Not Me
I will be your spitting image
I will be the mirror by your bed
I wanna be your evil twin and
Hear all the thoughts inside your head
I wanna wear your smile on my face
and trade your values for my own
It's like a curse when I walk on colors
They tend to melt into my bones

I'm a chameleon and I can't help it
All of my life I never been so selfish
(I've always been)

I've always been somebody's character
I play the role, the role that I prefer
There's noone else that I would rather be
Just someone, not me

I've always been somebody's character
I play the role, the role that I prefer
Hey now, I don't have an identity
Just someone, not me
Just someone, not me

I will be the first impression
I will do impressions of your voice
I will hide in your disguises
Aren't you glad that you have been my choice
When I'm done I'll find the next one
Another costume I can wear
another act I can put on stage so
Nobody sees that I am there

(Chorus)

Tragedy, this isn't me
Apathy, I'm never me
Come alive, I'm stuck inside

*synth solo*

Do you think I'm really in here
Do you think I'm buried at the core
Do you think I'm trying to get out
Like I tried a million times before
and do you think I ever wanted
to be nobody on my own
it's like a curse when I walk on colors
They tend to melt into my bones
Track Name: My Own Enemy
I wanna drown myself in a sea of tears
and wish away my darkest fears
I wanna run so fast that I almost fall

I wanna lose my character, lose my character
'cause I'm so sick of playing her
it would be so nice to forget it all

Maybe it's easier to be

Version two, someone new
I'll watch the pain until it fades out of view and I will be
my own enemy

I wanna find myself on the darkest night
and tell myself it's not alright
I wanna punch myself in the face all day

Oh I know I found a worst enemy, an arch-nemesis
But I'm a superhero, only one defending this
Feels like I gotta save myself from me

Maybe it's easier to be
Version two, someone new
I'll watch the pain until it fades out of view and I will be
my own enemy
I'm no good, wish I could
be who I wanna be, you know that I would, forever be
my own enemy

I wanna be my own enemy
I wanna fight me
I wanna be my own enemy
Is this gonna be the end of me
I wanna fight me
I wanna be my own, I wanna be my own enemy

I wanna be that girl where they never ask
is she capable of any task
I wanna see myself in a different light
Oh I know I found an arch nemesis, a worst enemy
She can't handle any kind of responsibility
That's why I gotta set my path all right

Cause I'm

Version two
Someone new
You know you make me want to turn into you so I won't be
My own enemy

I wanna be my own enemy
Track Name: Second Place
(Gotta go hard for the spotlight, gotta gotta go hard for the spotlight)

Second place is never number one
When you're standing on the podium you know you better run
'Cause your magic ran out, your fans know that you're done
and second place is never number one, HEY

It seems obvious to be the best one
break no promises and get the rest done
It seems obvious, be a rockstar
When you can't get there, you'll never go far

Second place is non-negotiable
Don't you ever try and stop me while I crash into a wall, baby
You think I'm stupid, you think I do this for fun
But second place is never number one

It seems obvious but easier said
You keep on running till your legs are both dead
it seems obvious, pound the bass drum
don't go to sleep till all your work's done

Second place is where I'm standing now
but you won't be clapping for me till I take my final bow, baby
Gotta get the lead, gotta get the spotlight and the sun
Cause second place is never number one

I'm too ready to stumble
I'm to perfect to crumble
Take my pencil out of my hand I'll be first

You gotta go hard for the spotlight
Gotta go hot like a prom night
Gotta go sick like a viral infection
I won't accept anything less than perfection, correction I will
but I won't stand up 'till I'm ten -feet-two
Successfully better than you or deader than you
Rather die than be less a go-getter than you

This monstrosity of perfectionism
Things not what they seem through your spectacles
I'm not afraid of being me
But I'm afraid of seeing me
Freak out all night long, it's foreverism
Track Name: Fallen To The System
How ya been lately?
You haven't been online
We tried to warn you

Fallen to the system
Guess what did we expect?
We tried to warn you

It always seems to end this way
They say they won't then run astray
And you have left us wanting more
with words left over in
1 2 3 4 what?

So how's your cool new life?
And do you study hard?
We tried to warn you

Fallen to the system
Forget us like the rest
We tried to warn you

It always seems to end this way
You blindly walk into the fray
And every time you think you're sure
with words left over like
1 2 3 4 what

Welcome back to life I hate the world I hate it all
Victim of the system you expected me to fall
Category
Track Name: When The Train Comes
All the fear kicks in on the platform waiting
Look up at your destination, and no getting bored
'Cause you don't wanna miss it

So take a breath, don't die
as your face is fading
Make it stop, I want to have my calm restored

Sweat drip on a road trip when the train come,
when the train come, gonna stop my heart
Hot mess goin' northwest when the train come
When the train come gonna tear me apart
I don't need a ride to unknown territory
That's right when the train come,
when the train come it's comin' for me

Gonna run me into the dirt
Gonna haunt me, I don't wanna hurt
Gonna run me into the dirt
Gonna haunt me, I don't wanna hurt

Everybody knows that I've got an issue
I can tell everybody knows that my mind's not right
I'm clinging to the railing

I take a breath don't die, I use another tissue
All abord, you'll see me on the news tonight

(Chorus)

Just keep chugging along through all the days
Everybody tells me look both ways
But the future is all I know
and I won't let it go