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I Don't Wanna Be Famous

by Awkward Marina

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1.
Better Times 03:44
I wanna go to a party to remember what it feels like to be covered in sweat I wanna dance with somebody, wanna walk along the street with sixty, seventy friends I wanna rock around the city, wanna break out out of this c-c-c-cage Do you recall me looking pretty in the pre-apocalyptic age? The light is fading from my hope Can't take it anymore Let's think of better times Think of better times, think of better times, yeah Let's think of better times Think of better times, think of better times, Forever (The better, the better, the better times) Take me back to the eighties and the nineties and the two-thousand, the two-thousand-tens I could live with the happy and the tacky and the everybody do it again I'll hold your hand around the city, wanna feel your body c-c-c-close When this is over, you can love me You can touch me from my head to my toes The light is fading from my hope Can't take it anymore Let's think of better times Think of better times, think of better times, yeah Let's think of better times Think of better times, think of better times Let's think of better times Think of better times, think of better times, yeah Let's think of better times Think of better times, think of better times Forever (The better, the better, the better times) (The better, the better, the better times) (The better, the better, the better times) In the past we were not hurting In the future we'll be fine I wish I could skip through time Let's think of better times Think of better times, think of better times, yeah Let's think of better times Think of better times, think of better times Let's think of better times Think of better times, think of better times, yeah Let's think of better times Think of better times, think of better times Forever
2.
I don't have the energy needed to go outside Bedroom filling up with my demons, in blankets I hide When they say you've got potential But it's too late to try Wasted beauty, like a dead butterfly When your wings weigh like water Do you stop to wonder why You've thrown it all away, you're a dead butterfly You're a dead butterfly This life, must be something that's in the screens that keeps us down We're all depressed and dreary and bedridden, No motivation now When they say you've got potential But it's too late to try Wasted beauty, like a dead butterfly When your wings weigh like water Do you stop to wonder why You've thrown it all away, you're a dead butterfly You're a dead butterfly Can't move from this stale room Dried out before you left the cocoon You're future's gold, but all you see is time and time again the inside of the wall When they say you've got potential But it's too late to try Wasted beauty, like a dead butterfly When your wings weigh like water Do you stop to wonder why You've thrown it all away, you're a dead butterfly You're a dead butterfly
3.
I got a car that I can't drive I got a gift that I can't open As long as I am alive I'm gonna sit here just hopin' "Help, I've fallen and I can't get up!" I've got these legs and they're not walking 'Cause every moment I've just had enough I'm at motivation zero And I need a hero who can electrocute me back to life I'm at motivation zero Who cares about tomorrow? I don't! No no no no Lazy ass bitch, bit- bitch Lazy ass bitch Ughhhhh I haunt this house like a monster I wreck it up like a volcano I won't go out on a Friday The number-one couch potato "Help, I've fallen and I can't get up!" I've got these legs and they're not walking 'Cause every moment I've just had enough I'm at motivation zero And I need a hero who can electrocute me back to life I'm at motivation zero Who cares about tomorrow? I don't! No no no no Couch potato, make me into french fries Mash me up, my brain's already like that I don't intend to move today What does it matter anyway Couch potato, make me into french fries Mash me up, my brain's already like that I don't intend to move today What does it matter anyway Lazy ass bitch, bit- bitch Lazy ass bitch Ughhhhh I'm at motivation zero And I need a hero who can electrocute me back to life I'm at motivation zero Who cares about tomorrow? I don't! No no no no I'm a lazy ass bitch, and I don't care what you think of me Lazy ass bitch, but it's really starting to get to me Lazy ass bitch, lying face-down on the carpet I'm a lazy ass bitch and I don't know how to stop it Lazy ass bitch, bit- bitch Lazy ass bitch Ughhhhh
4.
Hear her tracks on the journey down Down the mountain where the lava flows Armor shining in the falling snow Time has whittled her down to this Cruel erosion has become her bliss She's the warrior that you don't know Screaming, ahhh ahhhh Volcanic ashes blacken her eyelashes If you face her slashes then you're Going down down, going down down Cut and captured, wearing scars and fractures She seeks revenge She holds the obsidian sword Obsidian sword, cut through it all 'til you can't no more Obsidian sword, cut through it all 'til you can't no more Coming closer she yells "you're next!" Splitting atoms in every breath She is sharper than you might expect Watch her shine like the snowflakes do Facing everything you put her through Best be running if she's coming for you Screaming, ahhh ahhhh Volcanic ashes blacken her eyelashes If you face her slashes then you're Going down down, going down down Cut and captured, wearing scars and fractures She seeks revenge She holds the obsidian sword Obsidian sword, cut through it all 'til you can't no more Obsidian sword, cut through it all 'til you can't no more Obsidian sword, cut through it all 'til you can't no more Aquamarine eyes, cut to the truth in your web of lies Bloodstone in her soul, knows what you did and she'll swallow you whole Keep singing this song, but only in my dreams can I be this strong Volcanic ashes blacken her eyelashes If you face her slashes then you're Going down down, going down down Cut and captured, wearing scars and fractures She seeks revenge She holds the obsidian sword Ahhh Ahhh Ah-yayaaaa Ah-yayaaaa
5.
Words 03:32
You got somebody on your mind, Ain't treating you right You try to please 'em, it's never easy, It's never enough You got somebody in your life Never lay a hand on you, but they always lay demands on you Why do we get so scared to walk away We take the hurt like champions Why does it take so long, when it's not okay We take the hurt like champions No one sees the way we're screaming from inside But we do, yeah we do No one notices the trauma that we hide But we do, oh we do Can you see me cut wide open By the words you have spoken There's a weapon that can stab you in the mind It was you, oh it was you You got a love and they are kind, but only sometimes They call you stupid, so dumb and useless They don't see your worth You got a love and they are sly They mess with your mind There's power in those words Why do we get so scared to walk away We take the hurt like champions Why does it take so long, when it's not okay We will survive, I know it! No one sees the way we're screaming from inside But we do, yeah we do No one notices the trauma that we hide But we do, oh we do Can you see me cut wide open By the words you have spoken There's a weapon that can stab you in the mind It was you, oh it was you Things that people say Can wash your brain away But you can get it back, don't let them take it 'Cause you are enough To find some better love This isn't love No one sees the way we're screaming from inside But we do, yeah we do No one notices the trauma that we hide But we do, oh we do Can you see me cut wide open By the words you have spoken There's a weapon that can stab you in the mind It was you, oh it was you
6.
The door wasn't shut, she shut it herself She didn't wanna see the truth Didn't wanna see the truth The door to her heart all covered in chains Hoping that nobody knew Hoping that nobody knew When it all comes out, well it comes out pouring And there's no ignoring it, you let go When it all comes out, well it don't stop flooding Like a river running, like a blood flow It all comes out It all comes out It all comes out The door wasn't shut, they shut it for her Up against a closet wall, wishing she could have it all Is she brave enough to admit it to herself? "I'm not like everybody else" When it all comes out, well it comes out pouring And there's no ignoring it, you let go When it all comes out, well it don't stop flooding Like a river running, like a blood flow It all comes out It all comes out It all comes out I can't not be myself I said- I said- I said- I can't not be myself Open up the door, step into the real world now I can't not be myself I said- I said- I said- I can't not be myself Open up the door, step into the real world now When it all comes out, well it comes out pouring And there's no ignoring it, you let go When it all comes out, well it don't stop flooding Like a river running, like a blood flow It all comes out It all comes out It all comes out I can't not be myself I said- I said- I said- I can't not be myself Open up the door, step into the real world now I can't not be myself I said- I said- I said- I can't not be myself Open up the door, step into the real world now
7.
Broken Girl 02:18
You've got yourself a broken girl And broken girls, they seem so good They hold you close cause they're afraid And love you sooner than they should You've got yourself a broken girl She's grateful for your every smile And noone's treated her like a human being So she'll cling to you a long long while She wants to marry you, marry you, Day number one She wants to marry you, marry you Where will you run? She wants to marry you, marry you, Day number one She wants to marry you, marry you Where you gonna run? You've got yourself a broken girl Cause someone else thought it was smart To make her cry on a daily basis And she's lookin' at you to mend her heart She wants to marry you, marry you, Day number one She wants to marry you, marry you Where will you run? She wants to marry you, marry you, Day number one She wants to marry you, marry you Where you gonna run? She likes it when you touch her body 'Cause she's super insecure She likes the way you call her "baby" Noone's called her that before She'll make you breakfast in the morning, send you heart emoji texts Cry beside you on your shoulder Then move on to the next She wants to marry you, marry you, Day number one She wants to marry you, marry you Where will you run? I wanna marry you, marry you, Day number one I wanna marry you, marry you Where you gonna run? From a broken girl
8.
I was seven and dreaming of Hollywood Made my room the red carpet, and it felt so good Wanted all of those eyes on me But when you're little you just can't see When you're higher than the highest They can tear you back down with the slightest of a bias I changed my dream Now I believe I don't wanna be famous 'Cause it might be a bad thing I don't wanna be famous Not that anyone's asking I don't want that public eye Baby, I would rather die I don't wanna be famous I don't wanna be famous I imagine me singing to a sea of hate ("Boooo!") While the people throw insults about my weight ("She's fat!") It's a blessing and it's a curse It gets better while it gets worse I'd be everybody's favorite 'Til I make one mistake, yeah I don't wanna be famous 'Cause it might be a bad thing I don't wanna be famous Not that anyone's asking I don't want that public eye Baby, I would rather die Heard you know what my name is, But I don't wanna be famous No, I don't want that Blow me up, and you take it right back, oh no No, I don't want that Blow me up, and you take it right back, oh no No, I don't want that Blow me up, and you take it right back, oh no No, I don't want that Blow me up, and you take it right back, oh no I don't know how to be perfect to everyone Can't live my life on a stage in the burning sun So I'll change my dream 'Til I believe (Work) I don't wanna be famous 'Cause it might be a bad thing I don't wanna be famous Not that anyone's asking I don't want that public eye Baby, I would rather die Heard you know what my name is, But I don't wanna be famous No, I don't want that Blow me up, and you take it right back, oh no No, I don't want that Blow me up, and you take it right back, oh no No, I don't want that Blow me up, and you take it right back, oh no No, I don't want that Blow me up, and you take it right back, oh no I don't wanna be famous
9.
It's Easy 02:46
She zaps all my energy and it's worth it Like a bright bolt of light heading my way She travels by rocket ship and it's perfect Now I know where I'm going every Friday If anyone could take my walls and break them down It might be her while we're joking around It's easy, it's easy If anyone could make me see that it's okay It might be her, I know I'm not afraid It's easy, it's easy, hey One look in those hazel eyes and I've lost it Hold me close at 3 in the morning 'Cause all the fears I thought had won are slowly melting one by one My luck's turned up without a warning If anyone could take my walls and break them down It might be her while we're joking around It's easy, it's easy If anyone could make me see that it's okay It might be her, I know I'm not afraid It's easy, it's easy, hey I never thought it could be true But I open my eyes and the dream's not over If anyone could take my walls and break them down It might be you, I ain't joking around It's easy, it's easy If anyone could make me see that it's alright It might be you, can I see you tonight? It's easy Easy, easy, easy You make it easy
10.
Saw your heart fall down I wanna pick it back up off the ground And hold you near Keep you safe, my dear Everything's empty Everything's closed Streets are empty and nobody knows How to function and how not to cry But I will love you 'til the day I die Saw this land cave in Putting these pieces all back, where do we begin? We'll build a house From the ash and the rubble we've found And I speak alone in my bed to Constellations still over your head Things have changed, but not you and I For I will love you 'til the day I die Oooh, oooh As the world passes by I will love you 'till the day I die
11.
Best In Life 03:00
I'm feeling hip and funky-fresh Top of the top, no stress I gave my all, now it's the best I got it I'm feeling up, I'm feeling high Looking up to the sky Living in my own paradise I got it I might give up before when I didn't know what to do I might give up before when I didn't know what to do But I've been through hell and back with a hammer in my hand Bangin' on the walls 'til they fall at my feet again Damn it all if you think that you can stop me now I deserve the best in life, so get it right I said, you deserve the best in life, so get right After all this fight, I got the best in life And it'll be alright, it'll be alright, it'll be alright After all this time, I got the best in life And it'll be alright, it'll be alright, it'll be alright I'm feelin' drunk without a drink Greatness I'm on the brink You just might miss me if you blink I love it 'Cause I'm running at the speed of sound I'll show you what's going down My future's starting now and I love it I might give up before when I didn't know what to do I might give up before when I didn't know what to do But I've been through hell and back with a hammer in my hand Bangin' on the walls 'til they fall at my feet again Damn it all if you think that you can stop me now I deserve the best in life, so get it right I said, you deserve the best in life, so get right After all this fight, I got the best in life And it'll be alright, it'll be alright, it'll be alright After all this time, I got the best in life And it'll be alright, it'll be alright, it'll be alright And it'll be alright, it'll be alright, it'll be alright And it'll be alright, it'll be alright, it'll be alright
12.
Entropy 2019 03:24
(Rap) Twenty-twelve, had it made Famous on the web, bein' stupid, gettin' paid Pony on the cover, that's my money Cutie mark on my (gasp), everybody love me Took it to 30k subs They can't do it like I does Awkward but they give me love TikTok I stay blowing up Entropy, let's switch it up go I'm sittin' here in the sunshine This place is not mine and all is not fine Like, where is all my corruption? I need destruction to make me feel okay Did I get lost along the way, playing nice like they wanted me to be? No, I will not smile to make your day, I just wanna cause a little ENTROPY You tried so hard to make a hero out of me but there are some rules I don't obey and I just wanna cause a little ENTROPY You tried so hard to take the discord outta me but I'm not generic in that way and I just wanna cause a little ENTROPY Well, I've got no good intention The fourth dimension is my own mansion It's all messed up, I don't care 'cause what fun is there in ever making sense? Did I get lost along the way Lose my mind for a new identity? I quite enjoy ruining your day and I just wanna cause a little ENTROPY You tried so hard to make a hero outta me but there are some rules I don't obey and I just wanna cause a little--chaos and ENTROPY You tried so hard to take the discord outta me but there are some rules I don't obey and I just wanna cause a little ENTROPY SYNTHY SYNTH FUN TIME :3 This old heart was never warm, silly ponies can't reform what was already so real So you can try to change my ways for the rest of all your days But I can't change the way I feel... (Chorus)

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I really actually do not want to be famous.

But I wouldn't mind if this album blew up just a little teensy, weensy bit ;)

IDWBF is my third full-length album, and probably my "fun-est" one. I have a track record of making depressing music, but that doesn't make me happy anymore. I wanted to make something that embraces a wider range of emotions, something that others can groove to, even when I'm singing about negative things. Or positive things! Or any things!!

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