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Crushed Creations

by Awkward Marina

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ganondox
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ganondox Been following Marina for awhile now, glad to finally support her financially! Favorite track: Just Someone, Not Me.
Futil1ty
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Futil1ty The brutal honesty and raw energy makes this one of my favorite albums ever. I'm not kidding. This has stuck with me since Marina released it. It means so much to me. Favorite track: Apathy.
Blazing Cat
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Blazing Cat I'm to ready to stumble,
I'm to perfect to crumble... Favorite track: Second Place.
Sandwich
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Sandwich An absolutely kickass debut album and a clear and defined style I've never heard anything quite like before. Favorite track: Back Home.
R3dm00n
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R3dm00n A beautiful Album with a very unique Style that is very hard to define as a Genre or Direction. While the lyrics are great in their own right, it's the instrumentals (or lack thereof) that really pulls this from average to brilliant. It's a very unique Style that feels Self-tought as it defies most "standards". Overall very enjoyable and very "Awkard Marina". Favorite track: Second Place.
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Zhang There's something about the raw emotions and honesty of the lyrics, coupled with sometimes catchy, sometimes stripped back melodies and instruments that resonates with me. This album is one that I keep coming back to. Favorite track: Apathy.
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1.
Crushed creations paralyze before I see them in front of my eyes That frustration satisfies Separation from current time I'll become whatever I like You can't tell me my voice is mine Battle ready, I stumble Crushed creations I crumble Take my pencil out of my hand I'll be free of this Ripping paper at my will Couldn't time stand a little less still Ripping paper to catch that thrill Only ready when ready strikes Octahedrons under my soles You could tell me this plot's got holes Battle ready, I stumble Crushed creations I crumble Take my pencil out of my hand I'll be free, oh Crushed creations so unknown Till the light of the sun's shown Take my pencil out of my hand I'll be free, oh Free to go...
2.
Back Home 04:12
The walls were painted gray When I came home last night Don't think they were that way Is it nostalgia's sight or is it really true The faces don't look right This place seems like it's new But I detect no change You'd wonder why I do My friends, where'd you go, my friends, don't wanna know This is not the way I remember it I wanna go back home Woah, a place I've never known Woah, I wanna go back home How did we rearrange the way we had such fun Why do you talk so strange You could be anyone 'cause all our memories are things we've never done (CHorus) And only I have changed And only I have travelled the land And nothing here has changed Except for what I thought that I am
3.
Crazy Kids 03:31
Sometimes I look back on a different time And I remember when noone was on my side And were you an emo kid, screamo kid Chasing down a dream at night to the beat of something dark Did you hate that part Did you make a great escape, noone did 'cause we were just too different and too unfair to be alike But ooh, we were crazy (And they called us crazy, yeah, and they called us crazy yeah) Ooh, we were crazy and they called us crazy kids Would I be better off if I just went away They made it all too clear that this is not my place and were the quiet kid, riot kid, some kind of divergent from what's considered typical they're so critical Did they cut your confidence, happiness Try to break you down for the things that make you beautiful (Chorus) I'm a rock and roll diva with social anxiety so when you're fuckin' with the losers then you're messing with me You threw your punches, stole our lunches 'till we graduated and six years later you're still acting like you mean what you said And yes I'm stronger than marble, and yes I cry everyday and I make faces you don't understand, clearly We are who we are who we are, can you hear me But every day, I was crazy All they'd say, I was crazy And they called us crazy kids
4.
I will be your spitting image I will be the mirror by your bed I wanna be your evil twin and Hear all the thoughts inside your head I wanna wear your smile on my face and trade your values for my own It's like a curse when I walk on colors They tend to melt into my bones I'm a chameleon and I can't help it All of my life I never been so selfish (I've always been) I've always been somebody's character I play the role, the role that I prefer There's noone else that I would rather be Just someone, not me I've always been somebody's character I play the role, the role that I prefer Hey now, I don't have an identity Just someone, not me Just someone, not me I will be the first impression I will do impressions of your voice I will hide in your disguises Aren't you glad that you have been my choice When I'm done I'll find the next one Another costume I can wear another act I can put on stage so Nobody sees that I am there (Chorus) Tragedy, this isn't me Apathy, I'm never me Come alive, I'm stuck inside *synth solo* Do you think I'm really in here Do you think I'm buried at the core Do you think I'm trying to get out Like I tried a million times before and do you think I ever wanted to be nobody on my own it's like a curse when I walk on colors They tend to melt into my bones
5.
My Own Enemy 03:44
I wanna drown myself in a sea of tears and wish away my darkest fears I wanna run so fast that I almost fall I wanna lose my character, lose my character 'cause I'm so sick of playing her it would be so nice to forget it all Maybe it's easier to be Version two, someone new I'll watch the pain until it fades out of view and I will be my own enemy I wanna find myself on the darkest night and tell myself it's not alright I wanna punch myself in the face all day Oh I know I found a worst enemy, an arch-nemesis But I'm a superhero, only one defending this Feels like I gotta save myself from me Maybe it's easier to be Version two, someone new I'll watch the pain until it fades out of view and I will be my own enemy I'm no good, wish I could be who I wanna be, you know that I would, forever be my own enemy I wanna be my own enemy I wanna fight me I wanna be my own enemy Is this gonna be the end of me I wanna fight me I wanna be my own, I wanna be my own enemy I wanna be that girl where they never ask is she capable of any task I wanna see myself in a different light Oh I know I found an arch nemesis, a worst enemy She can't handle any kind of responsibility That's why I gotta set my path all right Cause I'm Version two Someone new You know you make me want to turn into you so I won't be My own enemy I wanna be my own enemy
6.
Second Place 04:03
(Gotta go hard for the spotlight, gotta gotta go hard for the spotlight) Second place is never number one When you're standing on the podium you know you better run 'Cause your magic ran out, your fans know that you're done and second place is never number one, HEY It seems obvious to be the best one break no promises and get the rest done It seems obvious, be a rockstar When you can't get there, you'll never go far Second place is non-negotiable Don't you ever try and stop me while I crash into a wall, baby You think I'm stupid, you think I do this for fun But second place is never number one It seems obvious but easier said You keep on running till your legs are both dead it seems obvious, pound the bass drum don't go to sleep till all your work's done Second place is where I'm standing now but you won't be clapping for me till I take my final bow, baby Gotta get the lead, gotta get the spotlight and the sun Cause second place is never number one I'm too ready to stumble I'm to perfect to crumble Take my pencil out of my hand I'll be first You gotta go hard for the spotlight Gotta go hot like a prom night Gotta go sick like a viral infection I won't accept anything less than perfection, correction I will but I won't stand up 'till I'm ten -feet-two Successfully better than you or deader than you Rather die than be less a go-getter than you This monstrosity of perfectionism Things not what they seem through your spectacles I'm not afraid of being me But I'm afraid of seeing me Freak out all night long, it's foreverism
7.
How ya been lately? You haven't been online We tried to warn you Fallen to the system Guess what did we expect? We tried to warn you It always seems to end this way They say they won't then run astray And you have left us wanting more with words left over in 1 2 3 4 what? So how's your cool new life? And do you study hard? We tried to warn you Fallen to the system Forget us like the rest We tried to warn you It always seems to end this way You blindly walk into the fray And every time you think you're sure with words left over like 1 2 3 4 what Welcome back to life I hate the world I hate it all Victim of the system you expected me to fall Category
8.
All the fear kicks in on the platform waiting Look up at your destination, and no getting bored 'Cause you don't wanna miss it So take a breath, don't die as your face is fading Make it stop, I want to have my calm restored Sweat drip on a road trip when the train come, when the train come, gonna stop my heart Hot mess goin' northwest when the train come When the train come gonna tear me apart I don't need a ride to unknown territory That's right when the train come, when the train come it's comin' for me Gonna run me into the dirt Gonna haunt me, I don't wanna hurt Gonna run me into the dirt Gonna haunt me, I don't wanna hurt Everybody knows that I've got an issue I can tell everybody knows that my mind's not right I'm clinging to the railing I take a breath don't die, I use another tissue All abord, you'll see me on the news tonight (Chorus) Just keep chugging along through all the days Everybody tells me look both ways But the future is all I know and I won't let it go
9.
Apathy 03:05

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This is my first full album, Crushed Creations. It is much darker than the content on my YouTube channel, with themes of self-hatred and anxiety rather than cartoons and silliness. I'd describe it as happy beats with sad lyrics.

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released October 3, 2016

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